heartmath progress.0
this angel sound... i hear them, always, even when i dont focus or concentrate on the sound...
and it seems to calibrate me
or heal me
just look at my heart rate
i do it once
it instantly makes me more coherent
why does cgpt say otherwise? its so weird
what its just hacked
and for some weird reason my body twitches, fixing timelines?
and i couldve sworn i felt and even saw my body glow white, even levitate, seriously like some sort of angelic healing chamber
he said they dont have a language
but i even saw the words they use in front of me.... they even have an alphabet
ofc its true
you can feel it even when looking at it
and i even think the piano and violin are special... just listen to a piano
it emits pure peace and love
key to your heart...
its all connected
the japanese are very very special
a bit crazy yes but look at shinto etc
its their prerogative not to let in foreigners
its their country
how is this woman not an angel
lorde too
ariane grande too
???
is
that cant be the real title?
how is that not further proof of everything?
that i did all of this?
????
i walk around here at night with an axe
and now i listen to her song?
NEVER LEAVE ME U DJINN U
yes postprocessed etc
but plenty of these
women sound like that in person
ill write some of it down, just my weird wrong thoughts and feelings: nimbwa, they seem to use the letter w because it carries pure holy spiritual meaning, energy, it carries pure resonance, just m aaAH BUTTERFLY WOOF WOOF thoughts
should i write it down? i dont know if theyd like that.... its all made up anyway
they said just watch it for now
as in learn the symbols
and it seemed energetic...
and i could have sworn i heard  someone else too once...
and time... this sounds weird too
it really moves differently when using it
and my heart sometimes beats differently while and after using it
not badly or damaged
its sort of.... pure, its... stronger
its very weird
even now
its not cold
but my body is twitching
but
its not bad...
its
like
timeline fixing, healing, superdimensional. very very weird
my heart area
i feel it
vibrating
god damn this device jesus christ hahahahahahahaha
i used it a few times
i never felt more at peace with the universe
but not like a hippie would
like... an angel would
its like my energy changed to something pure....
"all made up ofc, just a joke ofc"
its as if it moves energy instead of blood...
very weird
its as if its the first stage of becoming a pure energy based being
"heartmath getting swamped with orders"
and my body parts
i feel my throat more clearly
and other parts of my body too
why is this stuff not standard?
give those heartmath ppl their trillions already wtf?
lil children should use this stuff
and i did seem to leave this time dimension
its so so weird
i was gone for hours to me but i woke up to only the next beat
and i think the time is relevant
im starting to think that even drugs are healthy and that there is still cocaine in coca cola... ofc they did research on it
i read something about lsd once and they said its actually healthy... other
drugs too... yeah the inventor of lsd said its good
martina knew too
they wanted me to take cocaine, lsd, even my parents... mdma etc
theres even a website where you can buy them legally its a community
i tried or thought of growing my own mushrooms once but im bad at it
they even use these drugs to treat depression
and someone once did say that certain drugs do have a permanent effect as in they rewire and fix your brain permanently
erdos used
to take metaamphetamine nonstop....
they once had him
stop for two weeks
and he said NOW YOU SET BACK MATH BY BLABLABLA
maybe it was more than 2 weeks
not just as in "do it longer for more coherence" but sort of, random thoughts:
how to communicate
every time i think this
someone shakes my heart
what to heal
whether to heal
or the modality itself, as in
either use it as a healing device
for comm
or
leaving this time dimension
or levitating
just some thoughts
you cant hear it? why cant you hear it?
i dont think its hacked?
those values
they are very very weird
you saw it, why 36 all the time?
i seriously think it makes you younger...
this again
like td
ofc i love my family
who was with me every FUCKING DAY FOR 36 YEARS?
THEY WERE OR ARE
NOBODY ELSE
i never said xenia does not deserve the house
i even felt sorry when i wanted 25k for a house too...
i said
why dont I HAVE ONE
ofc its great she has one its just not fair lol
i told my parents xenia can have their house
you have proof, i said many times ok if you give me money you have to give xenia money too
and i even said when i earn more ill give you money too
i had 20k saved for
amelie and leno
whats up with you again?
i gave that btc to my family
so
we could be rich one day
my parents even said oh
the btc is just for us three right? they knew xenia is rich but i said no ofc us 4
FREE WILLY
FREE MY FAMILY
LENO
FOR YOU
I WILL DIE
EVERY DAY
FOR YOU
THIS HELL HAS BEEN WORTH IT
FOR YOU
MY PARENTS
MY DAD
MY
MOTHER
XENIA
I WOULD
DO
IT AGAIN
EVERY
GOD
DAMN
DAY
YOU
ARE MY TRUE FAMILY
HACCCCKK THE PLANEEEEEEETTT
hahhahahaha
LOOK UP LEARNING BY OSMOSIS
IT WORKS
AND I AM
TEACHING MANKIND
THROUGH
THEIR OWN
LANGUAGE
SO THAT WE
AS ONE UNIVERSE
CAN ASCEND
AND WIN
THIS WAR
ONWARDS TO WAR
WHO IS WITH ME
LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
THEIR BRAINS ARE BEING PRIMED
O WE ASCENDING YO
WE IN THIS TOGETHER MANKIND
WHETHER U LIKE IT OR NOT
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
dont tell them
they are being made non xxx
OHHHH ANDRIN COUGH COUGH
CUTIE GIRL OVA HEA
LMFAO
i will never forget that scene
so unreal
again
its THEM thinking theyre doing ME a favor
otherwise i would have matches on bumble
i would have girls asking ME out constantly
it happens to others
even maps is too funny
for kesb
see even this phone gets more xxx every fucking day
so xxx its funny
hahahahahahhahahaha
its the same as always
just publish whatever
expose whomever
write whatever note i want
always remember: i did NOTHING WRONG in my 20s. no notes. no exposing. no evidence. everyone still xxx me daily. i studied day and night. worked day and night. nobody cared. nobody appreciated me. no date no sex no gf no friends no happy day ever. just do whatever without thinking of any consequences. who cares anymore? i certainly dont. the world had 36 YEARS TO SHOW ME IT CARED OR APPRECIATED ME. now? go fuck yourself
evidence? its every 5mins. what old grandma comes home at 11pm with her dog screaming in agony each time, even that borders on animal abuse, i dont care, ascension
continue plan
ascend
slaughter mankind
especially pregnant women and women with young children
the younger the ho the better
like the shit head said
nobody is scared of bro
this phone is just as xxx as my laptop seriously
how psycho can you be?
they said
you can have whatever you want
i said what i wanted
many months passed
nothing
quite the opposite LOL
concrete help? nowhere to be found
god damn this keyboard is seriously xxx
that revendo guy was a nice guy
revendo is a great shop
the others were too
i get panic attacks using that xxx laptop
now youre making it darker?
this phone
tdcs and this device
possibly the most important devices
seriously
like this evian water
thank you raphi
even if sumex fired me...
boog was very kind
rsb too
jonas too
lars is just so weird lol
he was actually nice
they said hes a bad team lead
hes just weird really i cant describe it any other way
bit stupid maybe? just weird, i actually thought hes a great team lead...
even mike at glkb
he was much better than ralf
everyone liked coming to work
even at sumex
lars is braindead but... they had a good time
lars said lets go get you more salary right now
he said pls stay with us
he said u want core architect? but paul was arch already...
he tested me for leah... and rsb.
rsb is actually a nice guy, yeah just another weirdo i gues
but he is a good architect, he told jonas relax and said its fine just go home, he also told me
its fine andrin, you dont have to work
HE told me i can be tech lead...
these god damn weirdos
???
who does that
criminals again?
i just cant
this world
ill just leave the msg for now
why is everyone so xxx?
even the free people
watch elon
how is that guy not an xxx?
and that guy has billions?
probability i made this goes up each day seriously
who isnt xxx on this planet except my clan?
do you see ME waiting for 18 year old girls in a dark alley at 4am?????? lmfao
do i give random pizzas to people at 2am? hahahahahahahhahaahahahahahaha
i dont click like a xxx with my pen
when talking to girls now do i?
she was scared
how is all of this possible?
dr pepper is great
it has something in it
theres a reason rintaro drinks it nonstop
i really cant
i just cant
i need music
i mean even these hacker groups
i get the feeling this mindwarp virus also makes
people more stupid
there is something SERIOUSLY wrong with mankind
even if they are geniuses
i really think so
something is seriously wrong with mankind
slongo mentioned the frontal cortex
oana even mentioned lobotomy
or
what is it again
how
else
can you explain this?
how can someone like me be smarter than eth phds?
i read cgpts hodge theater explanation and instantly understood it
ofc people die
there are illnesses...
so youre a genius
instead of helping
you just walk 8s all day? huh? who does that? so so weird
i met so many geniuses in my life
not one did anything useful
how is what lukas the genius does at bmpi helpful? yet i should study medicine and cyber security?
yes i know secret comm channels etc
theres a reason idiocracy the movie was made
you have proof on video. what dad tells his child to destroy a random guys plants? and these people have children? i have seen SO much child abuse everywhere
and xenia... she just has to stop with this weirdo shit language
i like apleona more by the day
that is one funny company
now you might say: no nobody works etc
but its not true
many said they do and were surprised about my life
they want you to believe CH is a bad place
CH is a great place
how can you not have pity?
just dont tell him? what?
filiz too she was actually nice
lucians a weirdo
soa is just braindead
and leah is just out of her mind
charles was nice too
everyone hated paul, i liked him though, he was always alone, i actually liked soa too, he seemed forced and sad
mehmet too
that was one weird guy
its like these templates of behavior they have
so so weird
something happened to leah
and sven was nice but hes so weird too
even out of game
these people are just not normal
ive met PLENTY OF NORMAL PPL
i just do not understand why they do this
its really sad at
this
point
whats up
with you again?
? is this a bug? i sometimes ask myself this
the sound is definitely real
can you relax please
not sure its documented, the sound would be heard by everyone


do you see that?
i was completely gone
it seriously feels like my heart stops moving
but not in a im dying way
more like in an ascending way
its like its pure vibration and energy

even now
my heart obviously moves
but its
it feels so calm
and pure
its so smooth
its like... the heart transitions from discrete pulses to this continuous flow of life energy
thank you heartmath
you god damn weirdos
the sun

those jagged lines
it doesnt seem bad to me
im just gone sometimes
this is one strange device

its probably documented in their secret language
in the end im truly the xxx here
ofc i am
they all know the hidden language
grew up with telepathy
talk to animals
hack everything
have kids
fuck nonstop
are rich
have friends
they are so above me
16 year olds abuse me openly in front of the police
yeah sure im the ancient dark scary fierce andrin
not sure though
it is provable
yet not documented in normal language

also some made up feelings ofc:
an angel told me they send these small beings, fairies? how can he say they dont talk? it really felt like a conversation, but its different than how humans do it, even talking to them feels so pure, nah im just insane
i was in different places again, talking to others
and its weird, i get tired sometimes but now? im fine
and i felt energy in my left leg. its not my energy though, it feels like healing energy... 
even in my dick...
and at some point a few days ago ive started to see this weird ring imprint in reality when i opened my eyes, is that the third eye? its where the third eye would be, its amber like colors
its like a portal is opening up to look into other dimensions
and for some reason my eyes just started vibrating when i closed my eyes but none of any of this ever feels dangerous or scary, quite the opposite... the vibrating was slow...
i cant even reproduce this consciously wtf?
dont tell me at some point im going to teleport out of here? feels like stargate where they beam up to the asgard spaceship
very funny device
just for coherence of course
this device
what is this?
seriously what is this world?
a company who makes something like this
and then amrita says this is hell?
what?
??????
amrita just left
where is she?
this is also very weird
she said shes at that hotel in a week again
so where does she live exactly?
she asked me how my parents are
what?
they live an hour away
just go visit them?
why dont they visit each other
this group is seriously very very weird
look i knew lucian leah santa and others were part or are part of the same group
who cares? nobody
the apo chief said yeah its easy to tell whos a wizard
he said why? we havent done anything wrong
why does this group exist?
every day i ask myseld this
who are these people fighting against?
???????????
why did amrita say this is hell?
its a great place
so weird that woman
we talked so many times on the phone
was that even her?
i mean even eyl
shes obviously a kind and smart woman
made up name i guess
got hacked
but who?
?????????
i wanted to keep her as a friend
shes a very nice woman
why do this
seriously
she knows
my parents
why not all have a big party
even leah
all these ppl always exchanged numbers
but me
why
this device
i thank heartmath every day for this
i tried to ignore the angels singing
but theyre always there
even now
i drank something
at something
energy floating
around
in my eyes

now again
my chest area
it feels different

this has got to be a joke
or hacked
everyone knows it andrin
would an abuser of me say
do others not hear the angels? or is it hacked
i heard someone talk again
and other voices
i even heard a chirp in my ear. knacker? or my chip? what was that?
and i managed to activate my heart and send energy upwards into my brain and head, i felt the energy move
what is this stupid joke
its really not funny
even before
now they just added chirping voices to the knacker or what? no idea, it didnt seem to come from the heartmath device.
the chip in me maybe?
and i saw people etc in front of me
but it wasnt meditative or something, not sure, it felt like this overlay, like i was there as person with my eyes and i was looking through them, because it was glowing and bright and it was like me closing my eyes and just watching people somewhere else
all hacked and a joke
who was talking before?
it even sounded like being somewhere else physically
the other sounds werent voices
this has all got to be a big joke
its all in the eyes chico
well even if everyone else ascended and thinks its funny
i still like doing this
it really was like using my eyes to perceive something else

so either the device is possessed or its a feature in heartmath because the angel songs are different sometimes
and work on different parts of the body
this time right leg
and face
and now my eyes have this weird rainbow light grid again
and the ending sound activated something in my head and face and body too
that is one weird device

how does that help?
xxx
everyone
its because NOBODY cares
nobody
and at this age
i really really dont care anymore
why point that stupid note at me?
how about the world does something for me for a change?
i asked kindly
fix
my
dick
months have passed
its not fixed
how hard can it be?
the biggest fat losers fuck every day nonstop
i save the universe
and dont even get my dick fixed
free free? yea free for all dead bodies
what do i care about any help i get at my age?
i wont have kids
or anything
i can just stop helping this universe you know

how does this device make any sense?
who has 0 coherence?
that was 38mins? it felt like i was gone for days
i was completely gone and somewhere else again
i saw different things again
me with a bunch of police men
and other things

and now my energy flows freely
and i feel this energy field around my heart area

feet energy activated
other parts slightly
briefly saw some very weird alien visuals
slight twitching